🔥 The Part of Me I Needed To Find In Me.
How is it that the act of carrying this message in the 12Th step becomes such a powerful antidote to my basic problem of selfishness and self-centeredness?
You see having lived a life of running my life on self-will and being a natural self-seeker my life was all about “what can I gain out of this person or situation for me?”…
Even if it ment being gracious and kind in order to get my own way…
I was always the self-seeker looking to gain and maintain control…
But what was I really seeking for me?
The answer to this came to me once I became a practitioner of the 12th step…
For the first time I had to give of my time and energy to another person who had absolutely nothing to offer me in return for my self-seeking motives…
To give of myself to another alcoholic who probably wouldn’t stay sober long enough to be of any use to me at all…
And yet I found myself loving the hopeless part of this person that was just like me, and in turn I found how to love that part of me that I saw in this person…
Every alcoholic I have 12th stepped has turned out to be just like me!…
Hopeless, helpless and powerless over their disease…
Just as I was…
With nothing to give and everything to take…
And yet here I was time after time giving all of me to another human being who can give nothing back just as I had nothing.
I discovered that part of me that needs no reward for its giving, a part of me that I never knew existed…
And yet it was always there deep down inside blocked off from the sunlight of the spirit…
That part of me that is a part of you too…
Called unconditional love…
It was always there…
We just needed to know where to find it…
In another person just like you and me.
Paul