🔥 The Double Life
“More than most people, the alcoholic leads a double life. He is very much the actor. To the outer world he presents his stage character. This is the one he likes his fellows to see. He wants to enjoy a certain reputation, but knows in his heart he doesn’t deserve it”
- The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous
There are many things about me that if you knew you would not like or respect in me…
I fall far short of the mark of perfection…
This is my truth and I cannot pretend to be anything else but who I am.
There are 2 inventory steps that are designed to separate us from our ego and keep us separated…
Steps 5 and step 10 are all about admitting where we have been wrong…
Admitting where you have been wrong immediately detaches you from ego…
The ego will do it’s utmost to justify any kind of wrong behavior…
The ego demands a double life in order to portray a perfect image to the world while the alcoholic dies internally from living a life of cover-up behind closed doors.
This happens to all of us to a lesser or greater dergree…
The most humbling experience is accepting and admitting your wrongs to another person…
Most people would rather die than admit they have wronged someone they detest…
And yet having to prove you are right and the other person is wrong gives them all the power in the world over you…
The more I discover where I have been wrong, the more excited I become about life, as now I can correct my wrongs and live a life of doing the right thing according to God’s way not my way.
Paul