🔥An Awakening
“Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of working these steps”
This is my experience of an awakening:…
I have recovered from a hopeless state of mind and body…
As a result of this, I have been given the power to help others who suffer as I once did…
I am an agent of and for God…
I have been introduced to and accepted the idea that my drinking was merely a symptom, my real problem is that I am brutally selfish by nature of this disease and everything has to be about me…
This selfishness placed me in a position of separation from God and others all my life…
I am now convinced that I must be rid of selfishness or it will kill me…
Working steps 4 through step 9 and living in the disciplines of steps 10 and 11, the idea that I am separate to God and others does not exist in me anymore…
I no longer identify with my mind and it’s incessant chatter, but rather I identify with my own truth and the reality of any given situation…
The fabric of my existence is no longer interwoven with fear…
Any fear I experience is dealt with immediately by bringing my focus back into the now and to what God would rather have me be…
The idea that someday or presently I might be able to control my drinking has long left me…
Through daily prayer and Meditation and personal housekeeping, the problem of my selfishness is removed…
I have come to realize that God is doing for me what I could never do for myself.
Do I achieve anything close to perfect adherence?…
Absolutely not!
I constantly fall short of the mark…
The difference is, whether I screw up or succeed, I constantly live with a burning desire and iron clad willingness to help others as I have been helped.
Paul